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Home Sick
I miss home! Where's home? NY! How long have I been gone? Seven years this March! Ugh! I texted my mom and my dad since now that actually have cell phones, Imagine that! Usually mom and I, talk a lot through the week. My dad and I, aren't that lucky. I miss him! His crazy stories, his funny faces, his exaggeration, his obnoxiousness. I just miss him. Come Spring I always feel this way. I hate it! I'm too far from home to just get in a car and drive a couple of hours to see them. It makes me feel like I'm missing so much;Like I'm their parent. Dad and I, just spoke awhile ago. He told me he read the worst place to live is NM. I said, Well yeah that's probably true. At least he called back and we got to talk. Mom's birthday is tomorrow and he wants to take her out. Except she won't leave the house. He was asking what he should get her. I miss everything! Birthdays, holidays, special occasions, everything! I love our house and our church, but that's about it though. Is that enough to keep me here? I don't know! Haven't I stayed long enough? When I go to NY to visit them though I can't stand to stay in the house. It's weird, it's like I'm glad I'm there, but I'm antsy. What does that mean? My parents bicker and fight a lot and it drives me crazy. My kids don't know what it's like to have parents that fight, because Charles and I, just don't. Of course we get on each other's nerves, but that's besides the point. :) I didn't think I'd feel this "cabin fever" this year. I don't know why I thought this year is any different than any other year. I'm established here, but I just miss home. Summer, isn't that far away to go visit; but then again it is when you have an itch to get out of this place. Land of enchantment? I think not, Land of entrapment! I miss NY! I miss the people, the food, the smell of water in the air, everything. I just want to go home! :P
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I guess I shouldn't be so down about home. It's hard when you miss your parents and everything you've ever known. I got a wake up call when I read a sweet person's blog who is on a waiting list for a lung transplant. I should be thanking the Lord for what he's giving me. I'll be praying extra hard tonight. Just wanted to add that in there. Amen!
Posted by
Hillary |
3/28/2006 03:52:00 PM
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Posted by
Hillary |
3/28/2006 03:56:00 PM
Oh, I know you know this Babe. I'm glad that you are getting close with your dad. I'm really glad you had the opportunity to do so. It's hard...not being able to walk or even drive over to their house and see them. I hope your dad (or should I say, "dad") feels better soon. I'm glad he got a visit by you, that will just make his day!lol. Yeah, I fell in love with a Native New Mexican, but I'm ready to take him with me...anywhere but here. :) OF COURSE I STILL LOVE YOU. DO YOU REALLY HAVE TO ASK THAT?!!!! I wouldn't be here if I didn't. I wouldn't have married you if I didn't. I love ya to peices and I'm so thankful that we met. Now that I've laid it all on the line and everyone knows now that the case is....I'll stop here. Thanks. Love you!
Posted by
Hillary |
3/28/2006 06:23:00 PM
Yeah, I hear ya! So, you're coming in MAY???!!! WOW! That's exciting!!!! I bet your family will be so happy to see you and to meet Jen, too. :) I'm not going home until August so we can spend our anniversary there. We're going to recreate the top half of our wedding cake and live it up! :-)
Posted by
Hillary |
3/29/2006 11:07:00 AM
Nice!!! Your mom has met Jen, too? I didn't know that! Well, I'm sure you guys will have fun! I hope you come and visit me. I want to meet you, too! I pretty much feel like I already know you. We'll have to do something fun together. :)
Posted by
Hillary |
3/29/2006 12:09:00 PM
of course we'll come and visit you!!! i want to see the kids and the new house!
it must be so hard having your mom and family so far away from you. you guys are lucky that you're still able to talk pretty often. :)
Posted by
J |
3/30/2006 04:59:00 PM
Oh GOOD!!! I can't wait!!! I have after pictures of the house. Everything is really plain, but I'm working on it. :)
It is really hard. There are times I would just give almost anything to be able to get in a car and ride there, but I can't. I'm glad we talk on the phone though. It helps! When I talk to my dad I, get so home sick. My mom is different, because I always talk to her. At least we stay in touch via the phone though. You're right!
Posted by
Hillary |
3/30/2006 05:59:00 PM