Mama's Corner: July 2005

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

MY WEDDING DAY~

My wedding is in two weeks. Two weeks! The only thing that I'm scared about is that my wedding day is going to fly by. Of course that's just the FIRST day of our lives as husband and wife, but if I could freeze time; I would! :) I'm just going to enjoy every little piece of it! Charles, got his shirt and tie in yesterday. All I can say is, "That's hot!" :) My mom received my tiara and all the crap I ordered with it a couple of days ago. So, everything worked out there. I still haven't found a crazy wedding top. I probably don't have much time with the whole ground postage thing...And I don't want to pay an arm and a leg in postage. So, it may end up being fresh, cut flowers. I'm still deciding...I don't really need one until the Sunday before the wedding. I have a little bit of time. Last night, Charles' family came over to have dinner with us. We printed out some attractions and events going on that they may be interested in. I think the one thing they DID decide on is that Mrs. Lady Liberty will end up getting a visit. That's good. I think Aiy really wants to see her as well. Me? Eh, I've been there at least three times, but it doesn't hurt to see her once more. I just want to go to the beach. I don't necessarily want to swim IN the beach, but I do want to show the kids the waves and just have them play in the sand. It's always nice to walk right along where the very last drop of water meets the sand. It's my favorite spot. So, I think that one will be a "family" trip with mom and everything. My mom said, you'll find her under an umbrella. Ha! None of us have gone to the beach in years. My kids don't even know what a beach is, they think it's a water park with a slide. I just would like to show them what it really looks like. :) We'll probably be doing some ferry rides and a bunch of other things as well. It will be a lot of fun. I just want my family around me. I'm finally going to see them and I know I'm not going to want to stay in the hot house all day, but at the same time--I just want to chill with them. It's not often that I get to see them. Which is the main reason I want to move closer to them. I can't stand NM anyway...But I really would like to be closer to them. It doesn't look like that will happen any time soon. I really don't want to sign another lease somewhere in NM. It's really going to be hard. On top of that I definitely DON'T want my children going into kindergarten anywhere in NM. This state has the WORST schooling and education, ever. I've always told Charles, that I refuse to put him in a school here. If we sign another lease at the end of the least when he's 5 years old, we'll have to enroll him. He needs to start on time! Let's just hope and pray that we're not living here. Something has GOT to happen and happen fast. Education a major important thing and I want him to get the best and that won't happen here. So, that's that....Just some other things on my mind. I told you there's always something to write about. I just can't wait to get married!!!! I'm just counting the days...Telling myself not to forget certain items I'll need with me. It's SO exciting! I'm not nervous. I'm not worried...Well, maybe that our luggage will get lost, but that's about it. Other than that, I'm just anxious. I'm going to try on my dress today. They've had seen it in a whole month. I want it back, but I'm only lugging all of my things with me (ie. Petty coat, bra, shoes, the whole 10 yards), Trying it on, then they ship it for me to the store closer to the wedding area. I have an appointment to pick it up there, then I take it to Linda's house. She's going to hold all the attire so it doesn't smell like smoke from my uncle's house. Crazy, the things I have to go through JUST so nothing smells like smoke. I HATE smoke and people that smoke around me. It's gross....But that's besides the point. That's that! I hope they've done a good bustle on it. I can't wait to see it! It's going to be a good day today! ;-) ~~~~~ So, I went to see my dress. After 10 minutes of trying to get it on, I finally got to see what the back will look like. It's nice! It seems as though they failed to tell me it was a temporary bustle. The whole point of them bustling the dress was because I have an outside wedding. They were the ones that told me I wouldn't want to drag my dress outside...Which they're right...I wouldn't want to do that. Now they tell me that I'll wear the train for the ceremony and just bustle it for the reception. Okay...?? Hmm...It would be better the other way around. BUT whatever! It's not even guaranteed to stay either. All it is, are some buttons on my butt and lil loops on my train. So, I didn't think it'd look l like that. It's pretty when it's up. We still have to get a runner for the gardens. I think I'll visit the fabric store while we're out there, because I can't drag my dress outside. It's just going to get ruined.We got a nice suprise when we got home. There was a package waiting for us when we got home. This huge box was sitting in our door way. We got our first wedding present. We don't know who it's from yet, because we can't open it until AFTER the wedding. It's EXCITING! :) Hehe....I talked to my mom today. She's going to call the wholesale flower shops around and ask about the number of flowers it takes for a bouquet. She insists on doing this. So, she'll get back to me tomorrow about that. She's thinking of making the guys boutonnieres. That would be a BIG help. That's my biggest thing right now. FLOWERS! I need to figure out what flower I actually want...That would help. So, that's what I'll be doing until work comes rolling around again. Charles, went for all his paper work today at his new job. So, he'll be working like me on Saturdays. After he comes home, then I go to work. Pretty cool how everything is working out so smoothly. I'm just glad I'm done with my dress. They'll be shipping it and I won't have to worry about it until the day I struggle to get it on. Ah! There goes the hair do. So, things are looking good. :)

7/27/2005 08:26:00 AM | Permalink |

Monday, July 25, 2005

Lunch With a Friend ;-)

Stephanie and I, attempted to go to lunch together today with the kids. It was very interesting. Brevy, made it hard to even hold a conversation with one another. He wanted our FULL attention. He's so like his G'pa, aka "Hot Rod." Lord help me! I'm going to need so many enforcements when he gets older. LOL. So, anyway- It was fun, just a little complicated to hold a conversation. She's nine months pregnant and looks great. I can't wait to see her baby after she has her. It's so exciting to hear all the stories afterwards. I've been there and am pretty much a "pro" when it comes to the little ones. She had some questions and through my experiences I tried to give her the best advise I could. I just am ECSTATIC that she's pregnant and having a baby girl. Girls are a lot of fun! Boys are too! Just Brevy is needy and really loud! I wouldn't have it any other way though. If it was, it wouldn't be Brevy. Let's just say they BOTH keep me on my toes. The wedding will be interesting. We'll be getting married outside in the gardens and I know Brevy is going to BUST out with, "MAMA THERE'S A BEE OVER THERE! MAMA LOOK AT THE BUGS!!!" I know something like that is going to happen in the middle of the ceremony! It will be a really good laugh session anyway. He's so silly! We're going to have him start practicing holding a pillow and walking straight. Imagine that! Ha! After we got back from lunch though I went to do something for me...I got my eye brows waxed. Painful, but pretty! lol. It's painful to be beautiful or at least attempt to be beautiful! hehe... l;-P~

7/25/2005 04:48:00 PM | Permalink |

Saturday, July 23, 2005

New Wedding News...hmmm?

I just learned this morning from an email that my aunt will be coming to the wedding after all. This confuses me, because when I called her awhile back to ask her if she'd be attending, she told me "no." She's now going to visit my uncle Don, who just had surgery and go with him to my wedding. Didn't anyone ever think about calling me and say, oh by the way- Hill, we're coming to your wedding. My family is something else. I mean, it's good that she's coming. If it wasn't for Jess, I wouldn't know anything. Why not call me and let me know though? I have to report numbers and let's not mention actually PAY for people to EAT! Ugh! So, I found myself on the phone this morning with mom, Jenice, and cousin Juanita. I found out some interesting things...But still didn't get a chance to cram in a phone call to my aunt. I will tomorrow though for sure. I had to run off to work. I got in late last night. No sooner did I get to sleep at 1am, I was startled with the children screaming at one another this morning. Yes, this is how I wake up every morning. For some reason they think that they aren't able to hear one another and feel they need to express themselves very loudly. So much for sleep! When I got home from work today, we got a call saying Brevy's tux was in. We took a trip to the mall to pick it up. Boy, did he look handsome. To my surprise he didn't even need alterations. He fits him perfectly. That's one thing we didn't need to pay extra for. AMEN! He's all set! Boys are so easy. They jump in their clothes; look and smell delicious. I wish it was that easy for me! My Bride's maids are FINALLY set! Another AMEN to that. Jenice, called and has purchased her dress, shoes, and jewelry. She sounds happy and relieved that she's done. Now we just need to find somewhere to get our hair done early in the morning. My mom is working on that one, though. Thank God for mom. We did a little shopping today. I just bought Brevy another Scooby-Doo movie. What is it with him and Scooby-Doo? Who knows! Lots of parents that come into my store have the same story. I guess Scooby is an oldie, yet a goodie. That's the way we see it. I would think with all the "monsters" in these movies that kids would be scared. Not my kids! They laugh and laugh. Now I'm not saying it's the best thing in the world for them to watch. Actually, they shouldn't even be watching TV, but that's not too realistic. Tell that to his Daddy who got him into Scooby in the first place. :) What are ya going to do when those big, brown eyes look up at you? Sucker! But anyway, that's what we got him. I brought daddy another one of his books. I've got him reading, which is a good thing. I think ever since he's been out of college he hasn't picked up one book. And who's to say he picked them up while he was even in college? Ha! I'm just glad he's enjoying those books. I want to get into my Steven King phase again. What happened that I ever stopped reading those books...Oh yeah....Brevy and Meesa....But they're getting older now and I have down time during the day. I just need to learn to take some time for me. Stop going on the internet to search for wedding cake toppers and actually sit and relax with a GOOD Steven King book. Sounds good to me. More work tomorrow...Maybe I'll pick one up then. I also plan to find out what's happening to this crazy wedding guest list at the same time. I mean, it's LAST MINUTE and all kinds of people are changing their minds. Well, it's too late now. :-P~ We'll see what happens though. Until then, it's time to put the kiddies to bed. YAY! G'Nite! :) :) :) :) :)

7/23/2005 09:07:00 PM | Permalink |

Thursday, July 21, 2005

A crazy afternoon

What a crazy day it's been and it's not even two in the afternoon. The house is a mess from brevy's party. It seems there's a million things to do as they sleep this afternoon. Ah, I don't have the motivation to do it. My mind is in a million and one places. The wedding is coming long wonderfully, but there are a lot of little things to still purchase. I can't find the right cake topper and that seems to get on my nerves the most. Man and wife cake topper would be just fine, but they don't have the right ethnicity. So, I gave up on that option. Now, I'm just trying to find something nice and not that expensive. It's a little frustrating when your damn computer is so slow. Charles, says I should get DSL for the remaining two months that we live here. That would be fine, but they don't even offer it in this area. When you're planning a wedding online, it can be pretty frustrating when you can't view things in a timely fashion. I think those are my frustrations right now. I ordered the cake and knife server and sent those to the wedding spot, since I can't travel with them. LOL. Imagine that one! Right! I ordered my tiara, bubbles, and garter belt last night. We purchased a guest book before Brevy's birthday. I don't know what to do for party favors. I have an idea, but still need to get the items. I still have yet to find a cake topper. There are a bunch of hair appointments I still need to make, but I have no idea where I should get my hair done. Most places don't open as early as I'll need it done, since the ceremony is at 11 in the am. So, that's still a dilemma. There's just a BUNCH of little things. Who knows what I've forgotten to mention. It seems with the kids and work, I can't get anything done. I know it will all work out. I just like being able to handle things promptly. I like having everything reserved so I don't have to deal with it at last minute and it seems there are just a few things giving me problems. Other than that we're set. *trying to smile* :} More later when I find out what else there is to order. Ahhh....That reminds me, I have to call the flower shops...;}

7/21/2005 01:48:00 PM | Permalink |

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Brevy Time

Brevy's Birthday was a lot of fun. I feel like I've been talking about it all day to others. The pictures I sent to everyone captured practically the whole thing...We went to Chuck E. Cheese in the morning to play and had a party in the evening. Brevy, had a great time with his sisters, cousin April, and the rest of his family. He got everything he wanted and more. He's all set. I guess when we get to NY, his other grand-parents are going to have a party for him there. They're actually going to celebrate Brey's, Meesa's, and Charles' birthday altogether. It should be fun! ;-)

7/20/2005 09:23:00 PM | Permalink |

The Origin of, "Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue!"

The "something old" signifies the couple's friends who will hopefully remain close during the marriage. "Something new" symbolizes the newlyweds' happy and prosperous future together. The "something borrowed" is often lent by the bride's family and is an object that is an heirloom with sentimental value. The custom of the bride wearing "something blue" originated in ancient times where the bride wore a blue ribbon in her hair to represent fidelity.

7/20/2005 04:37:00 PM | Permalink |

Monday, July 18, 2005

Happy BDay

7/18/2005 03:51:00 PM | Permalink |

My Little Red Car

7/18/2005 03:50:00 PM | Permalink |

Happy Birthday Brev

7/18/2005 03:43:00 PM | Permalink |

Little Yellow School Bus

7/18/2005 03:42:00 PM | Permalink |

Happy Birthday Brevy

Tomorrow, is Brevy's 4th Birthday! YAY! He's been so excited lately! He has no idea what we're doing for his birthday! So, I hope it will be a BIG surprise for him. We're decorating tonight after he goes to bed! When he wakes up in the morning he'll get to see his BIG surprise! :-) He should be a very happy little boy. ;-)

7/18/2005 02:20:00 PM | Permalink |

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Sunday~

Today, is my day off. We all went to see Madagascar, it's SO funny! I was laughing the entire time. It's adorable! :) The kids and Charles, enjoyed it as well. hehe...I called my uncle Don, to check on him after his surgery. He failed to let the family know that he'd was in the hospital for an entire five days without notifying anyone. Crazy, huh? His own daughters knew, but didn't even call him, because they were thinking his surgery was on a different day. What a shame! I think that's pretty depressing. If I ever need to go to the hospital for some reason (knock on wood!) My whole family and friends better look like calling me. I just think that's so sad. They had to remove a blood clot from his leg. They went through his stomach for the vein. He's got 18 stitches that he's getting removed soon. OUCH! He says no matter what they he's making it to the wedding. He's walking around and feeling okay. I guess the best you can feel after going through all of that. I told my mom to call him and also cousin Joe. That will uplift his spirits. :) The kids and Charles are napping. It's just Aiy and I, we're both bored. There's nothing to do when you have to keep quite. :( We picked out Brevy's birthday cake earlier today. He wanted a Scooby-Doo cake. I looked through the entire book to see if they had one and all I found was this "girlie" Scooby-Doo cake. I asked the lady if they had any others and that would be the page laying on the counter...Ugh....My poor aching arm for no reason. hehe...So, I showed it to Brev and that's the one he wanted. Not bad! So, we also found a cool cake for Baby, too. He wants a Spiderman cake. hahahaha. How cute is that?! We went to the toy store last night to find out what we'd get Brevy. He feel in love with this fire truck scooter. It's something I had my eye on for some weeks now. We had him try it out. He's never scooter-ed before. He knew what to do with it, it was just getting his coordination down pat that he struggled with for awhile. It was really cute watching him attempt the concept. He wants it really bad. I'm trying to teach him that he has to be a good boy if he wants things. He doesn't seem to get that concept either. Ugh. I don't want a spoiled son who thinks anytime he wants something, he's going to get it. So, he knows he has to earn it. We'll see if this lesson works or not. Meesa, has a hurt tow these days. When I went to work on Friday, I guess she was by the door and Charles came in from the garage and didn't know she was there and her toe got smashed by the door. It's swollen and bruised and she's walking pretty tenderly. Poor little one! :( I always tell her not to stand right by the door...Sure enough she's learned why. She'll be okay though. The nail is intact and will be fine after the swelling and bruising go down. So, like Tom Cruise said about little Dakota, "It's in my contract to carry her everywhere!" She's loving all the attention. She isn't exactly light either. LOL. I just want her well so she can enjoy racing around the house with her brother again. :)

7/17/2005 05:04:00 PM | Permalink |

Saturday, July 16, 2005

The Harry Potter CRAZE~! Ahhhhhhhh!

Ugh, Harry Potter night. I can't believe I have to be a part of that. I really don't want to work tonight. I don't even think I can last until like 2am. I'll probably be half a sleep the whole time. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I made it through...Just barely though. I had to work with a BUNCH of stuck up, snotty people. I really can't stand snotty people. UGH, I was the only one in the entire store actually working. Everyone was there it seemed and just milking the clock. I was the only one open and the only one helping customers. Everyone was else was in a huddle, fooling around. That's okay though, because the cameras were on them and as I had a line, they were just standing there...So, I hope something will be done about that--probably not though. When it came time for the line up, I was fighting the crowds. Again, I was just trying to get things done. The lines weren't as long as I expected. Only one line was wrapped into the book section. All the other lines were just "regularly long." I felt bad that they stood there for almost an hour. I put all the movies back while the kids lined up for the costume contest. There was a jelly bean count contest as well. I guess it would be fun, if you were like ten years old and really liked Harry Potter. To me, it was just a bunch of noise. People screaming into the loud speaker to get the crowds attention. If you were deaf, you'd do just fine winning prizes last night. All that noise gave me a migraine. Good thing I prepared and had my meds with me. When the final 12 o'clock hour came we opened the million boxes and piled them on the side of my register. Then, the fun began...I found myself saying, "One or Two?" oh yeah, and "$19.20" It only took a whole 30 minutes for people to leave. Not a bad turn out and not a turn out like we all expected. I guess all and all, it wasn't that bad. And NO, I didn't buy a Harry Potter book! :)

7/16/2005 10:58:00 AM | Permalink |

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

A treat for me...

I get my hair done today! YAY! I was planning on having my mom do some highlights, but I once read it's a BAD idea to get your hair colored or changed in a drastic way right before your wedding. So, I'm going to a trusty place where she used to work and get it done this evening. I can't wait to relax and have someone do something nice for me. It's nice to be able to sit there and read a book or a magazine while they "work" on you. LOL! I'm looking forward to it. This Friday we're having this crazy 'Harry Potter' thing at my work. It's midnight madness, which is going to be out of control! That's perfectly fine if you're single with no children to go home to. I'm really NOT looking forward to it. I don't go in until 8pm, so that should tell you something right there. Ugh, it's going to be a long and crazy night. I can't believe that people will stand in lines that wrap around the store, three times for a book that they'll be able to get some other day when there are NO lines. Geez! I think that's crazy, but that's just me. The only good thing about it is I get to actually eat dinner and put my kids to bed that night. That will be an easy night for Charles. The house will be quite. Nice! More wedding talk...Mom and Jenice, are the only ones left to get an outfit for the wedding. They're both going on the same day. Hopefully they each find something. Speaking about the wedding...Aiy's people now about it now for sure. I'm sure Aiy told her before that, but you just never know about those people. I thought she was going to be a big B*&^% about the whole thing so we wrote it down on paper and just gave it to her. I absolutely dislike holding a conversation with her. I'm sure she'll want to pull a fast one and have Aiy try to be out of town those days we'll be gone. Which is so NOT going to happen. We'll see...She's evil like that. So far, so good. I could really careless though. We're going to have an excellent wedding regardless of what she plans on doing. I just hope she acts like an adult and lets her go with us. On to more positive note--Brev's Birthday is next Tuesday. I can't wait to see his face when he sees the house all decorated. He gets so excited when you blow up one balloon. I know he's going to have a blast. He was sick last year on his birthday, because all the little kids in pre-school were sick and pasted on their yucky germs to him. This year he's going to be just fine. I can't wait! I plan on getting him this water pool/slide that's shaped like a whale. It's cool, because you go up the latter and slide down and land in like three inches of water. So appropriate for his age. Meesa, can have an excellent time with it as well. It should be a really cool summer activity that they can all enjoy. :) I don't know what else we'll get him, but I know that's one he'll enjoy for sure. He's still doing really well with his bike riding. I can't believe he's growing up so soon. It just puts into prospective how quickly time actually DOES fly by! :-0

7/13/2005 03:15:00 PM | Permalink |

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

A Cousin's Words...

Something my cousin told me after I told him about the stress I went through yesterday. "I want you do to one thing for me but mainly for yourself. This will be a big day for you and your husband to be, as the time draws near obstacles will come before you and it may seem that things are not going right, this is nothing but the devil and when they come before you two just stop and pray and let the Lord Work things out. Don’t be upset about your dad just keep him in prayer to. This wedding is for you and Charles and don’t allow anything to hinder it no matter where it comes from, this is a special day and we want you and Charles to be happy because you should be. Once I get there I am going to do my best to keep things happy as the family gets ready for a blessed and happy day vice a sad one so smile and know God is going to work things out. (He already has)." --He is so right. I look to this paragraph when things come up.

7/12/2005 09:10:00 PM | Permalink |

Monday, July 11, 2005

Am I going NUTS?

Most of today was a very stressful day. Didn't I say I wasn't going to stress? I guess that would be easy if my Dad wasn't on the phone screaming and yelling at me. Yep, I called him to talk about the wedding. BIG MISTAKE- in a way...He tells me to call him and let him know what's going on. So, I do that...We ended up talking 45 minutes and most of it was screaming and yelling. UGH! He stressed me out BIG TIME. He told me he was going to pay for the wedding ceremony site. Then, when we start talking he tells me only 1/3 of it. I'm like, "Are you kidding me?" Charles' parents have paid for enough. Charles and I, are struggling paying for what we're paying for and he has the nerve to say that. UGH, PARENTS! I swear....So, after he yells at me for NO REASON (I might add!) He tells me, "okay I'll pay for it! I just want you happy!" What would make me happy is YOU not yelling and screaming at me. He just doesn't get it. How are you going to say, I'll pay for it...Then, out of nowhere say, No- I'll only pay 1/3! What the hell kind of ISH is that? *sigh* I'm glad that's over with. I was really down after talking to him. Even though he's going to pay for it...He still puts me through so much for absolutely no reason. That's the way he's always been. I think I'd get more out of having a conversation with the damn wall than talking to him. Anyway, all is supposed to be well. Jenice, called me. I was having a bit of trouble when she called, On top of my already stressful afternoon. I had some money that I thought I put in a certain spot and when I looked there, it wasn't to be found. First of all it was given to us for Brevy's suit. Then, when I go to find it, it's NOT THERE! So I'm freaking out, because we were planning on going to order it and I misplace the damn money. UGH! I was so stressed!!! She knew it the minute I answered the phone, too. Luckily, her and Charles knew where to look. Thanks guys! So, after we talked about the wedding plans, we headed to the mall. Brevy's all set! Thank you, Lord! =) We're practically done with this crazy wedding planning. Everything has pretty much been running smoothly, considering! "It will all work out!" --Those are my famous last words. :-) And it does. =)

7/11/2005 10:14:00 PM | Permalink |

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Feeling Better! =)

I felt a lot better this morning than I did the last two days....What a mess! Stress can really do a number- let me tell ya. I had my friend Stephanie's, baby shower to attend this morning. It was a lot of fun! We had lots of laughs and lots of food. She got a lot of really nice, useful things. She's looks really good. When you're pregnant you just have this glow about you. She's cute! We're going to go to lunch before she has the baby. She's due 8/28, but is planning on being induced way before that. LOL. I guess she's tired of being pregnant. It was fun, because we were all either almost married or already married. All but two girls didn't have children. So, we were sharing baby stories...I think we scared Steph a little. BUT she's prepared now. LOL... I have to take my son to get his Birthday pictures done...More later...Gosh, what a busy night!!! We went to the mall way across town, just to get his birthday pictures done. Charles, got him an outfit while I was at the baby shower. He looked cute for his pictures. He did a great job of smiling as well. Then, we went to my store and I got my free book and some other things. We got hungry by then so we ordered some pizza. Yummy! Then it was off to the mall right by our house. I listened to Charles and got myself two outfits....Which I felt SO gilty about. Meesa, needed sneakers and I was aiming to buy her some. Instead I got the outfits and Charles got her sneakers. I didn't feel all that great about what I picked out and I ended up taking them back. :P I kept one pair of pants and I got Meesa another night outfit. So, she's set! :) I feel much better. I didn't really like what I picked out and I was supposed to get 15% off...And didn't. So, I'll find something else. At least my little one is set. She's got some cute sneakers, too! hehe. They're finally in bed! YAY! I work tomorrow afternoon. We've been on the go all day. I'm tired and need some R&R! G'Nite!

7/09/2005 10:25:00 PM | Permalink |

Friday, July 08, 2005

=)

Feeling better...Thank God! Should be 110% tomorrow! YAY! =)~

7/08/2005 10:16:00 PM | Permalink |

I'm in PAIN! :(

I've been IN PAIN since about 6pm last night with intense back spasms, because of stress. It lasted until about midnight. If you've ever been pregnant and experienced BACK labor, that's EXACTLY what it felt like. I haven't experienced anything like that since I had Meesa. I was in a lot of pain to say the least. --all due to stress. Sucks! I'm trying my best NOT to stress today, but I still don't feel that well. Dizzy and light headed...Slight pain in back. (I work tonight, too. Ugh!) :*(

7/08/2005 02:10:00 PM | Permalink |

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Disturbing Phone Call

My mom is drinking, again. She went for about a month with out drinking. Yesterday, in the middle of the day I thought, wow I wonder if she can last until the wedding? It was like, sub-consciously I knew she wouldn't. Sure enough today I was right. This is a case where I don't want to be right though. Her disease effects everyone around her. She doesn't understand that. She calls and disrupts my whole day. Now I'm in tears and just off track. I tell myself not to let it bother me...To think of other things, to stay focused on the wedding. I still sit here in tears wondering, when will she get it through her head? She didn't learn anything from her Aunt...She was a smoker and recently she was in the hospital for pneumonia. She's now on oxygen and they're around the same age. She spent some time with her last week in NY. My mom was in shock at how bad she looked, was on oxygen, and the whole nine yards. Don't you think that would make you look at yourself? I mean, HELLO! She's not a smoker, but reality is reality!!! Even though she wasn't drinking when they spent time with each other, but 1 week later she is. She needs a wake up call. She won't get it until she hits rock bottom. It's just a shame. I hate talking to her when she's like that. I absolutely hate it. She ignored the fact that she was drinking again and was just yelling at me to talk to her about the wedding. I said, "For what? Tomorrow you won't remember a thing!" It's true! I'm just so tired of holding this all in. So tired of not talking to anyone about it, because it's "embarrassing"... When you're younger you ARE embarrassed! You don't talk about it, because no one's mom is like that! So, you hold it in and you pray she stops. I'm tired! I'm so tired of doing that. I refuse! Why should I have to hold this all in? I shouldn't! I'm not going to! I can't help her if she doesn't want to help herself. I leave it up to God. I give my problems to God and just hope and pray.

7/07/2005 02:32:00 PM | Permalink |

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Brevy~

Tonight, I was practically in tears as I watched my almost 4 year old son ride his bike by himself. He's growing up way TOO fast. He didn't need my help as he peddled down our street. I couldn't believe my eyes. I don't think I'm ready for this at all. I wish he was a baby again. He was such a pleasant baby. If I could turn back the time, I WOULD! I wouldn't change anything, but I wish he was just a little one again. He's going to be 4 years old soon. Time goes by so quickly! I sit there and think, Look at all he's learned. Look, at everything he has mastered since he was a baby. It's truly amazing that they're their own person. I like watching him grow and change with each new day...But as I watched him peddle by himself, I couldn't believe my eyes. I thought, he doesn't need me anymore. Silly as it may sound, but he doesn't need me as much as he did some months ago when he struggled with his bike. He was so frustrated he wanted to go back to his Fisher Price bike, which is now Meesa's. He's got it down pat now and I'm so proud! He's growing and learning new things each and every day. These times are so precious, so precious...Priceless moments. It was a tearful, happy moment. :}

7/06/2005 10:28:00 PM | Permalink |

Blessed Family

I'm truly blessed to have the family that I do. Tonight, I got a call from my cousin, Pastor Joe, (the one I didn't even know existed.) He called to talk to me and see how I'm doing. This man is something else! We go back and forth in email all day and then he calls me...I thought that was so sweet!! We talked about the family. How out of touch we all are and how it's a shame that uncle Frank and uncle Joe have let themselves go. He said a prayer for the family when my other uncle Sonny passed away. He prayed that we'd all come together for a good occasion. That indeed is what's happening...My wedding is going to bring the family together for a happy occasion. The only time our family ever comes together is when someone passes away, which is a sad thing. We just found each other a couple of months ago and I already know so much about him. He's a good Pastor and a good person. I'm glad we'll be coming together, as a family. I really can't wait to see my family. I'm hoping we can all sit down, talk and just have a good time. I'm really excited!! He's going to come a couple of days early so we can all get to know everyone. He has some family near by the area and he told them we're going to meet our new cousin, ME! It's really nice that he's taking the time to gather what family he has in that area just so I can meet them and they can meet me. He said he never knew my mom had a child. That's what he told me...He contacted me, because I signed his nephews quest book online after he passed away...I left my email address, thinking nothing of it. Then, 5 days later I get an email...And it's all history after that. I think God has brought us together for a reason. It's a good thing. I have TWIN second cousins I didn't even know about. His daughters are my age! This family needs to get together and write a book! I bet we have some stories to tell. I can't wait until the time comes. :) Now, I know I have someone close to me that I can always talk to...And that's a real good thing. :)

7/06/2005 09:08:00 PM | Permalink |

Monday, July 04, 2005

FIRE WORKS

Just got home from the fire works. It was a really good show- much better than last year. They had the mayor count down from ten and the fire works started with music when he got to one. It was really good. Meesa, got a little scared so she sat with me on my lap as they went on. There was a GREAT ending as well. Nice! Brev and Meesa, got glow-in-the-dark necklaces and one broke on me. I had a glow-in-the-dark hand. LOL. Freaky! So, we got another necklace. On the way home through all that traffic Brevy's broke on his pants...Not a good toy for little ones. He was really disappointed. Poor Brevy! Meesa, taunted him with hers for awhile...Then, we played "snake" and she laughed the whole way home. She's so silly! They had a really good time and can't wait until next year. Maybe we'll let them go on some rides...But I doubt it. LOL. None the less, they're excited! :) Charles and I, went on our HOT Sunday night date. We headed to our favorite spot...Where else, but P.F Changs....YUMMY. Such a good China Bistro. You must know that by now from reading this crazy blog...It's all I ever talk about. We ate well.....They're was this obnoxious guy sitting in the next booth over with what looked like his four year old daughter. He was cursing up a storm and talking to someone on his cell with his little one right beside him. I couldn't get over how loud he was. Charles and I, felt sorry for the little girl. She'll probably grow up to be just like him. Why would you want to teach your four year old such horrible language? I didn't understand that at all and still don't. The waiter didn't know what to say to him. You could tell he was uncomfortable. When the man and his daughter left...He came over to our table and said, "Do you believe that guy?" We were talking about it for a minute--just crazy and really sad! Other than that, dinner was great. We had a wonderful conversation and excellent food! Did I say the food was excellent yet? Oh yeah, it was excellent!!! LOL. We bought our movie tickets on Fandango so we were all set there. We went to see War of the Worlds. Good movie! Suspenseful and kind of scary! We liked it a lot! I love Tom Cruise and of course little, Dakota Fanning... She's a great actress at such a young age. :> I think I end up liking almost anything that Steven Spielberg directs. He's an amaxing director! I usually don't like Sci-Fi movies, but this was also Action/Adventure/Drama/Thriller. It's about the Earth being invaded by these alien tripod fighting machines and one family just trying to survive. (Go see it and you be the judge!) 8-)~ Overall,We had a great night. It was nice to go and relax after working all weekend. I opened on Sunday morning, which I haven't done yet. It was kind of boring. I got to know one of the managers a little better though. I guess he's not so bad after all. He just came across like an Ass*&^%! Anyway, it was tough getting up so early, but today we got to sleep in. We didn't wake up until 11am! Wow! I don't think I've ever done that. I enjoyed it and thought it was a good thing. Charles, didn't seem to think so. :) Mom and Dad are well. They didn't do much for the holiday. They put up a new tent and my mom cooked a lot of food. They stayed in and watched the fire works on TV. My Mom was probably by herself, because Frank and my Dad were sleeping. Not what I call fun. She's pretty much used to it though. I told her that when we're there we're going to be going out and doing something fun! Poor Ma! Well, It's late and the kiddies are in bed. Yay! I think they're happy to be home in their beds. Even though they had a wonderful time tonight. Meesa said, "the fire works are gorgeous!" Have a glorious forth of July!

7/04/2005 11:17:00 PM | Permalink |

HAPPY Independence Day!

Happy 4th of July!!!!

7/04/2005 03:17:00 PM | Permalink |

Friday, July 01, 2005

Mouth Watering 8-O````````

I've ordered our cake. It's going to be a three tier, yellow cake with white chocolate Buttercream icing- filled with strawberry mousse. It will have lavender, medium sized roses -cascading down the side of the cake with pastel green leaves. YUMMY! We're going to cake test while we're there. I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!

7/01/2005 02:30:00 PM | Permalink |

The ONLY thing that's on my mind....

I have work tonight. It's bitter sweet...I get away from the house and the kids for awhile,which is a good thing. Where I'm headed to though- isn't exactly great. Give or take- I guess. I close tonight meaning...The yucky bathrooms need to be cleaned. They better NOT look my way! I've already complained and I know some others that will be doing the same thing. They just need to do the right thing and hire someone to do that. It's so gross...I don't want to think about it anymore. :-P~ I need to call the chef and the florist back for the wedding arrangements. We're getting things done slowly. My mom is excited with her seating arrangement. She will be sitting next to her "favorite brother" and also Charles' mom. We're trying to seat so our families are mixed together and have no choice but to speak to each other. hehe...Charles' idea! I think it will work out great! I'm just a little apprehensive about my dad. He's known for being rude and saying exactly what's on his mind, even if it DOES hurt your feelings. Hmmm...So, I hope that goes well. I've already reminded him to behave himself. There won't be any alcohol so hopefully everyone will. LOL! Meesa's, dress is getting altered slightly by her great Aunt today. She just needs to take it up a slight bit. I was thinking after it gets altered Meesa, will have a HUGE growth spurt and look as though she'll be waiting for the flood. I guess that's why it's a major *plus* to have those gals in the family. *wink* Still don't know about the dress for the Bride's Maids yet. I know it will all work out well though. Timing isn't everything! When I was in the bridal shop last week, I saw the dress we all agreed upon in lilac. It was really something. It doesn't look good in lavender haze, but it looks gorgeous in lilac. :) Major plus, if the first dress doesn't work out. There are always options! :)

7/01/2005 11:46:00 AM | Permalink |

Happy July~

Gaze up into the skies. Smell the heavy perfume of the flowers and grasses. Feel the evening breeze or the warm middday sunshine on your face.- Thomas Kinkade

7/01/2005 11:42:00 AM | Permalink |