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Monday, December 29, 2008 

Maybe I should DELETE my page....

I was thinking about deleting my page. I really haven't taken the time to write here anymore. Too busy with life and really liking myspace for everything these days. ;-P I'm still thinking about it though. Maybe I'll see if anyone reads this first. ;) Have a great day.

 

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Wednesday, May 28, 2008 

The Trip to NY...

We left on Tuesday, May 20th @ 10:30pm and DROVE to NY. Of course we stopped in MO. to rest and continued our road trip to NY. We got there on Thursday at around 11pm or so. Mom was still up and surprisingly uncle Franklin came down stairs to visit with us. We were exhausted and just wanted to sleep. Every bone in my body ached from sitting so long. It's a little over 2,000 miles to NY (one way). EEK! We got there and had a lot to do the next day. Mom had everything that was once locked up in a garage out in the back yard under some tarps. You can imagine how this looked from the outside of the house. It was enough stuff to fit in a 2 bedroom apartment and that's just what it was from. It rained for 20 days prior to us getting there though and not everything could fit under the tarp. Am I creating the screen for you? So, everything was soaked and moldy. Pretty gross if you ask me. We called 1800-got junk and they came to haul 99% of it away for a pretty penny. Then, we packed what was in the house and took off. We left Sat. night @ 10:30pm to get back on the road to our home in NM. Can you imagine how I felt at this time...? Tired and exhausted. Charles, did a lot and was exhausted as well. He was up and hyper and had the nerve to drive back with the exception of me driving for a couple of hours. We stopped in Mo again to rest in a really nice hotel. This time we had a cat with us. Yep, my mom wanted her cat to come a long, too. I held the cat in a carrier on my lap the entire trip back. This was not any fun. (You're laughing right now, huh? Yep, I thought so)! It's my fault, I'm just too nice. So anyway, the cat came a long to the hotel, too. We did get a little nervous when we hit Oklahoma, because there was a tornado warning. We figured this out AFTER going through some rain and hail. The sky looked so ominous it was really scary. We saw clouds circling like it was trying to create a funnel. Scary. I did get a few pics in here and there. Anyway, it was a 4,000 + mile trip and completely exhausting. I'll NEVER do that again. I did manage to find some cool stuff of mine though. As we were going through some of the boxes I found my old diaries from 1994-1998. I read some tonight and man was my life crazy. All my boyfriend issues. It's kinda funny now, but it's cool to go back and read what happened back in the day. I found my '97 year book from NJH, too. Craziness! Good times and bad times. That's what made me who I am today though. Right now I'm just trying to do the right thing. Now that my dad is gone, my mom has no one to support her. She was taking care of my uncle and that was it. Now it's time for her to move on and have his kids take care of him. Maybe she'll live a little. It's been two days now and she's really set in her ways. She loves to challenge me and bump heads with me (all without knowing it). I'm praying and trying to be a good daughter. She's been through a lot. I just want to make her comfortable and do my best to take care of her and the situation. How this will all work out...? I have no idea. I hope to bring her back to the Lord that she once knew. I'm sure she still does, but needs to walk with Him again. I know God is in control and that's how things should be. Today was a roller coaster, but I know everyday will be a little easier. We had a tornado warning today for NM. It was pretty scary knowing it was possible to see something out of it all, but nothing happened. Not even one rain drop. Isn't that something? I know God is watching over me along with my daddy. I know I'm safe. ;) Well, it's late now and I should be getting some rest. Tomorrow is another day, God willing. G'night and God bless you.

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Tuesday, May 06, 2008 

HAPPY 10 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!

It's our 10 year anniversary. Charles and I, met 10 years ago today! Can you believe that? I can't! It doesn't seem like 10 years...wow. Good ole AOL. ;)

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Monday, April 28, 2008 

Speaking to the MEN...



Okay, if you haven't figured this out already...

When your wife or girlfriend does something new to her hair, SAY SOMETHING!

When your wife or girl friend cleans house all day, SAY SOMETHING!

When your wife or girl friend cooks you food, SAY SOMETHING!

We need to know we're appreciated. Thank you!

Friday, April 18, 2008 

HAPPY FRIDAY~~!!!

Here's another beautiful photo, if I do say so myself. hehe...I have butterflies in my back yard and they're loving this flower bush. ;)

 

Butterfly

Butterfly Originally uploaded by MamaMelon.

Here's to a happy Friday. I took this photo about an hour ago while in my back yard. I LOVE butterflies. Isn't it cute?!

Thursday, April 17, 2008 

Mom's Moving Preparation part II

I told you there would be more...So, I talked to my mom today to see if anyone has taking her to the storage place. Nope, nothing had been done. People came over to the house to help rake the leaves. The leaves...of all things. So I asked, "What happened to the plan to move everything out of storage today?" She says, they wanted to finish all the lawn work first. Even though I was very frustrated, I didn't seem it and kept calm. I told her she's going to end up paying for the month of May, because it's not going to be done in time. She swears it will all be done, but doesn't know who's going to do it. Charles and I, will only have one week to get it all done with our work time restraints. If we end up driving that takes up most of the time. So, everything has got to be done before we get there. I wish I could help her. I wish I could do it all myself, but it's not going to happen. I'm too far away and the kids will be done with school in about a month. There's too much to deal with. She mentioned waiting until next year. *Shakes head* She just doesn't get it. She has no income and doesn't drive and depends on her 71 year old brother that can't even do anything for himself. How's that going to work out? I'm just really frustrated right now. I'm trying to do the right thing for everyone and the more I talk about it, the more the Devil trys to get his mix in there and provide doubt for all of us. I tell myself over and over, GOD IS IN CONTROL. NOT YOU! I leave it up to Him and I know everything will work as He plans and not how I plan. A lot is going on and I need to vent sometimes...So, I'm warning you....If you don't want to hear complaining and fretting, then you should have stopped reading a long time ago. ;) That's what my blog is for. I have no one else to talk to. I talk to hubby, but he's always at work and has his own problems. We do talk though, I'm not saying that. It's hard to have an hour long conversation with him while he's at work and while all is going on. Sometimes the blog is faster and I feel better afterward. *Breathing* So, on to other news...Do I have other news?

Oh yea, we're planning a graduation party for my daughter. ACTUALLY, my daughter has it all figured out. She tells me, "Mama, I'm going to have it at the park. I want water balloons, cake, lots of food, all my friends there..." I told her, "Well, let me start writing this down!" It was so funny. She's such a trip. We had that last year for her brother so she just knows she's going to get the same treatment. Well of course, right? LOL! Anyway, my kids always make me smile. I should end for now. I've got to get them in a bath and ready for tomorrows day. More venting another day...

Tuesday, April 15, 2008 

That would be I...

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Can we say, "STRESS?"

OH YEAH! Lately, that's all it's been around here. My son has had a fever since Saturday night. It may be the flu because he's got body aches and is sensitive to the light. He fusses to eat or drink anything. It's pretty frustrating, because as a parent you just want him better. That's one issue.

I'm always stressed with the whole moving my mom to NM. We were looking at costs and OH MY is all I have to say. We looked at every option, driving, flying and a combo of both. Everything is a lot of money. Plus, there's the dreaded garage that they had. They stored stuff in there for 15 years from their prior apartment. One word: YUCK! The garage my dad had was like the only one at the time in Burgh and is falling apart. It's not air conditioned or heated. EW! I hate to see what condition that stuff is in now. My mom is planning on getting some people to help her get it all out this week (supposedly). We'll see how that goes. I can't imagine bringing any of that stuff back with her. Especially to my house that's only 2 years old and in great condition. It's just a lot of crap to deal with and a little overwhelming. It's hard to do stuff when I love more than 2,000 miles from her. Friends have offered to help, but when it really comes down to it, will they be there? I sure hope so! We need all the help we can get.

Baby, is having a men's conference in Jemez tonight. He won't be home until late which really sucks, because there's no one to talk to.

I did happen to buy myself Mariah Carey's new album today though. She's got an awesome song on there, "BYE BYE" and it really speaks to me. Her father also passed away and listening to that song helps. Music helps in general, actually.

It's just a bunch of crap going on here lately and I really feel like just screaming, but because that won't make anything better...I'm just digging in. ;-P I know the Lord will provide and I know I just need to be still. I'm sure I'll have more to write on these issues soon. Stay tuned.

 

Vegas Sunset Ball

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This is a prime example of my day today. ;( ALL MIXED UP!

Thursday, April 03, 2008 

Today was a rough day...

It seems like that's all I've been having lately. Today, was emotionally rough. I thought about my dad a lot. I thought about all the things we wouldn't be doing again. It just makes me want to cry all day. I tell myself to be positive and to know that he's in a better place. It's just hard. Tonight, is movie night. It's also Charles' night to play ball with the guys. He's getting ready for a tournament in a couple of months. He's excited about that and wants to practice. Me? I'm just under stimulated and bored. It was a overcast day and I don't think that helped my mood. I tried to keep myself busy with housework, but that only worked for so long. A quite house and no one to talk to isn't exactly helping. Charles, usually calls me throughout the day, but today he was busy with meetings. Oh well, I guess. I'll be okay. Tomorrow is another day and I do have to work. Work is always busy and I never have time to think while I'm there. I called my mom today. Her and I talk everyday for hours and sometimes it's more than once a day. She told me she was stressing about all the bills from the funeral. My dad had a hospital bill and an ambulance bill. She was in tears while we talked. She called the hospital and told them he passed (they should know he was there) and the women on the phone told my mom not to worry about the bill, they'd "eat" it. I keep telling my mom not to stress about the bills. They weren't married but we together for almost 40 years. She thinks she's responsible and tell her over and over again she's not legally responsible. If anyone is, it would be me. I wish she wouldn't stress like that. She just had her 60th birthday on March 29th. She had a good day, too. As soon as next month she'll be in NM and sharing a home with us. That's my plan. She slaves over my 71 year old uncle day in and day out. She's at his beck n call doing EVERYTHING for him. He can't do anything for himself and depends on her. He's got health coverage, but do you think he'd get a nurse to come in and care for him? NOPE! Why when it's free? He's got my mom to do it all. She hasn't told him yet that she's coming. She thinks he'll throw her out of the house if he knows about it. *Sigh* She's going to have to tell him sooner or later. I know God won't give me more than I can handle. I'm taking it day by day and everyday is different. I'm praying for strength and direction with what He wants me to do. More on Sunday...

Wednesday, April 02, 2008 

The worst day of my life.......

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I haven't updated my blog in a long time. Recently, I've been inspired to do so. So here it goes: A lot of changed and happened since I last wrote something here. The most dramatic change was loosing my father. He passed away on March 12, 2008 in the morning in our Newburgh, NY home. He died in my mom's arms and mom said he looked so peaceful. Here's the thing: My dad wasn't sick for more than a few days in his life at a time. He was always the strong one. The one who can handle anything. My dad was sick with the flu for 2 weeks before his passing. He died of a stomach aneurism. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. I'm sure my mom can say the same thing. The morning of the 12th I got a phone call from my mom. She left a message on my machine. Charles, gets up before me and got the message. He woke me up and said to call my mom. I asked, why? Everything ok? He answered, "I don't know her message said to call." My heart was beating fast. I knew she wouldn't have called me for nothing. I thought to myself, I hope everyone is okay! I thought it could have been my uncle. He's always in and out of the hospital. It was an awful thought. Mom answered and told me that she had to call 911 for daddy. I panicked, I asked if he was okay and what happened. She told the awful story that I can not bare to write. She told me in detail about my dad falling over on the bed and turning blue. They worked on him for 15 minutes and nothing. I was crying and she told they were going to take him to St. Luke's. I screamed, "St. Luke's? Ma, you know people go in and never come out!!!" I was angry. She said that it had to be the closest one. I asked was he alert? She said no. She didn't tell me at this point that she thought he had already passed. She led me to believe they were going to work on him at the hospital. My heart was broken. I told her to call me when she hears something. I sat on the edge of my bed and cried. Charles hugged me and asked what happen. As I repeated what she told me he said, "Keep a positive mind. Your dad is a strong man!" I closed my eyes and prayed. I prayed and I prayed. I prayed for the Lord to do his will. I prayed that my dad wouldn't be in pain. I prayed and surrendered to my Heavenly Father. I told Him, You're in control Lord. You know what You're doing and I trust You. I had visions of my dad's hand dangling. I saw the size of his hand and I could even see the nail bed. I could see it just as if it was in front of me. I kept seeing it over and over in my head and didn't know why. What did that mean? I had the worst thoughts in my head about planning a funeral. I told myself it was the devil trying to break me in my weak time. I couldn't shake the thoughts. I was dazed and wanted to be there in NY. I sat on my bed as Charles got the kids ready for school for 30 min. I couldn't move. He took the kids to school and I decided to go to work. I thought to myself I can't sit around and wait for the phone to ring. I drove myself to work and an hour later I got a call from my mom. My phone was vibrating inside my jeans pocket and knew I had to pick it up. I was on the phone with a customer about her order. I was done with her and she kept asking me questions. I had the urgency to want to hang up on her. I asked her, "Anything else I can help you with?" over and over. She finally got the hint and let me go. I ran off the floor and called my mom...once.....nothing.....twice.....nothing. Why isn't she picking up? I call her cell, nothing. I call the house phone and FINALLY she picks up. She said, "Hillary-Daddy passed away!" I dropped to the floor in the middle of the hallway and screamed, "NOoooooooooooooo" I don't remember much after that. I know there were some other associates calling my name and I was just broken. My supervisor came and scrapped me off the floor and brought me to my feet. She took me into a side room and I finished my convo with my mom. Everything after that is a blur. I know my supe held me and I had only known for maybe 2 weeks by then (we which supervisors all the time) and I just couldn't think. Of course I left work. I called my hubby and he drove 35 min. from his job to pick me up. I waited in the lobby by myself. The only person in the same room was the security guy who my back was to. It seemed like hours before Charles got to me. We went home in my car and he left his at my job. I remember sharing with Charles my visions and thoughts that I had that morning. How awful I felt to even be thinking of them. Was that God preparing me? Did I know he has passed before my mom told me? Ya know what she said, "Hillary you should have seen his poor arm hanging from the stretcher when they carried him out of the house." Is that what I saw? I dunno, but I saw his hand in my head and couldn't shake it. The worst day of my life. We got on the lap top and pc and the phone when we got home. We called (I say "we", but it was Charles) He called at least 10 different airlines to try and get deals to fly there. We left on the 13th at 6am to be with my mom. The worst trip I have ever taken. I was a mess. I couldn't think straight and I didn't know what was going on. I prayed for strength and asked other people to pray for me as well. My dad was a great man. He helped so many people and touched so many lives. People I didn't know came up to my mom and I and told stories that were just amazing. He was so giving. I was blessed to have him as my dad. The Lord needed him more than I and called him home. He lives in me and in my heart and I will never forget him. He rests in Orange County Veterans Cemetery where he had a nice service. His real home is in Heaven and doing God's deeds.

 

Lillian's Mosaic

Lillian's Mosaic Originally uploaded by MamaMelon.

Something beautiful for spring to see and because I haven't posted in a LONG time. Enjoy!

Wednesday, August 22, 2007 

Captive


Captive
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Look at the eyes.

Monday, August 20, 2007 

SCHOOL TIME!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS YEAR BOTH OF MY CHILDREN ARE BACK IN SCHOOL. SNIF!!!! Time has gone by so quickly and now my youngest has started school. She was brave when she got her shots for school and she was brave her very first day. She's a tough lil cookie. She's doing great. My son didn't want to return to school to be a first grader. He was too worried about all his friends and wondering if they'd be in his class. Right now he seems to have no interest in making new friends. He just wants things the way they were last year. He's got a great teacher or at least it seems that way. Actually, they both do. House is still, which I'm just starting to get used to. It's different, but I'm getting a lot done around the house. Charles and I, are able to go on dates and not have to make plans for someone to watch the kids. :) I'm loving that!!!

Saturday, August 11, 2007 

~OUR 2ND WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!!~

Today, is our wedding anniversary. We've been married two years and it's been a great two years. Grandma, has the kids and we're going out all day by OURSELVES. YAY! We have a full day planned. We're going to Japanese Kitchen to eat lunch. Then, we're going to an outdoor mall and after that we plan to catch a movie. After the movie we're picking up the kids and going out for some dessert. YUMMY!

Saturday, August 04, 2007 

Baby's Birthday!!!

We went to AZ. on August 2nd to celebrate baby's birthday. We drove with all three kids in a full size rental car. It was a long 8 hours there, but Charles drove the whole way and didn't ask once for me to drive. I offered and it was declined because apparently I drive "too slow"...go figure! Once we were there we swam 24/7. We stayed at a beautiful hotel. It was a great time away! Here's some pictures.

Monday, July 23, 2007 

ITZ

We went to ITZ last night. The company I work for had their annual party there and it was a blast. It was all free of course and we had so much fun. It was from 4-8pm and we actually stayed until after 9pm. ;) We shut the place down. Rides and arcade setting. Kids road the roller coaster at least 20 times as well as this "spinny thinggy" (that's what we named it)...another 25 times. Aiy was adamant about asking my supervisor to spin us on the ride, so he did. I think she actually had a crush on him and wanted to meet him. lol. I'm still exhausted and have a few pictures to show for it. Needless to say we're going back on our dime one of these days. ;) http://www.itzusa.com/fun_photoz.php

Monday, July 16, 2007 

Brevy's 6th Birthday...

Brevy's birthday is right around the corner. We're going to have his party at a kids friendly-bowling alley. He's been talking about bowling for his birthday since last year. He's getting his wish. Can't wait!!!!

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Monday, July 09, 2007 

Ayiesha Woods Concert

We went to a FREE (yes, free) concert last night. It was at Calvary Church, in Abq, NM. Ayiesha is someone my hubby introduced me to recently and I love her music. Then we heard on M88 that she was putting on a free concert. Perfect right?! So, last night the kids and hubby and I, went. It was outdoors and we got front row. The band stayed after the concert for autographs. We got our CD signed by everyone. It was great! If you haven't heard of her or listened to her music, you got to check her out. She'll have you dancing and feeling good. http://www.christianitytoday.com/music/reviews/2006/introducingayieshawoods.html
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Tuesday, July 03, 2007 

Happy 4th of July ~07~

HAPPY 4th of July, EVERYONE!!!!! HAVE A FUN AND SAFE HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

 

MORE basketball camp & cycling....

Brevy, got to go to a MEN'S Lobo basketball camp June 27th-30th. This camp was awesome. He learned basketball skills and got to play in a real game all week. He got a Lobo shirt and he's very own basketball at the end of camp. He got his shirt and ball signed by the coaches and the Men's Lobo basketball players. :) On the 30th Charles, entered in a cycling race; Tour de Bosque. It was helping a local HIV clinic. He finished 25 miles in less than 2 hours. It was his very first cycling event and he's hooked. He's loving it just as much as backetball. ;) We're proud of him. I told you it was a busy summer....Brevy, has golf camp coming up in a couple of weeks....here we go again. ;)

 

Vacation Bible School

The kids went to Vacation Bible School the week of June 18th-22nd. They had a blast from 9-12pm. It's a national church event. Brevy, got to go this year finally. They put on a performance the last day of camp. Let's just say I have pictures of Brevy and Aiy, singing and dancing. Hehe....;) Kids are busy this summer and I'm more exhausted than I've ever been. They better thank me when they get older. ;) Actually... Brevy, did say, "Thanks Mama for waking up early all week to take me to church!" It brought tears to my eyes. He was truly thankful. Amen to that!!! ;) These days kids don't appreciate anything. I'm glad he was able to see that it was hard for me to do it and he was grateful and thankful he got to go. :)

Monday, June 11, 2007 

Basketball Camp

Brevy completed his Lobo Basketball Camp. It was four days from 9-12pm. He completed all his skills and at the end of camp he got an evaluation on him. His couch says that he could be a really good basketball player in the future. He got "excellent" marked on everything. He was the youngest one there. He really enjoyed it and had a great time. He's going to do another boys camp in a few weeks soon. He's also set up to do golf camp. More posts soon.

Friday, May 25, 2007 

~Brevy's Graduation~

Brevy, graduated kindergarden on Wednesday. ;) YAY! He's going to be a first grader soon.

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  • From NY living in New Mexico, United States
  • I'm a Christian bride and blessed mom of two beautiful children. I got married to the love of my life on August 11th. We've been together for over 9 years. I was born and raised in NY and I miss my home. I love the sound of rain.:) I hate the smell of butter cooking.:-P I adore all types of animals. I have 2 cats that I love very much. I wish I could have more animals, but this is good for now. We also feed the birds outside and I have a squirrel that comes, too! We have to feed God's creatures! Everyone needs LOVE and food. :)
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